Twixt Land and Sea by Joseph Conrad
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which even cuts with a riding-whip (so the legend had it) could
never raffle into the semblance of a storm; something like the passion of a fish would be if one could imagine such a thing as a passionate fish. That evening I experienced more distinctly than ever the sense of moral discomfort which always attended me in that house lying under the ban of all "decent" people. I refused to stay on and smoke after dinner; and when I put my hand into the thickly-cushioned palm of Jacobus, I said to myself that it would be for the last time under his roof. I pressed his bulky paw heartily nevertheless. Hadn't he got me out of a serious difficulty? To the few words of acknowledgment I was bound, and indeed quite willing, to utter, he answered by stretching his closed lips in his melancholy, glued-together smile. "That will be all right, I hope, Captain," he breathed out weightily. "What do you mean?" I asked, alarmed. "That your brother might yet--" "Oh, no," he reassured me. "He . . . he's a man of his word, Captain." My self-communion as I walked away from his door, trying to believe that this was for the last time, was not satisfactory. I was aware myself that I was not sincere in my reflections as to Jacobus's motives, and, of course, the very next day I went back again. |
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