The Grip of Desire by Hector France
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Faith? It had fled away long ago, since the day when he had laid aside his
dress of catechumen, and, initiated in the secrets of the sanctuary, he had laid hand on the priestly jugglings. Then he had been filled with an infinite sorrow. But he had prudently repressed it deep within, and in this centre of devout hypocrisy and holy intrigue, he had covered himself again, like all the rest, with a varnish of sanctity. Faith! What priest is he who, amidst the religious pageants, the public falsehoods and the private apostacies, the burlesque scenes behind the stage preceding the solemn performance, what priest is he who has preserved his faith? What priest is he, upright and wishing to remain upright--there are such lost in obscure positions--who has not said quietly to himself, in his inmost being, all alone with his conscience, what the Curé of Althausen often repeated to himself: "Faith, bitter mockery! to believe by order, without examination and without reply! "Annihilation of the individual, murder of the thought, criminal denial of the intelligence, the most sublime of man's gifts! "Oh miseries of the soul! filth of the body! vileness of the spirit! unfathomable depths of human folly! What am I and what are we, and whom do we wish to deceive? "What are we, we who say to others, 'Be just, humble, chaste, pitiful? Have |
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