for me, when I was so suddenly and dangerously taken ill--[the
ipecacuanha experiment, Jack!]

She interrupted me--Well have you rewarded me for the concern you speak
of!--However, I will frankly own, now that I am determined to think no
more of you, that you might, (unsatisfied as I nevertheless was with
you,) have made an interest--

She paused. I besought her to proceed.

Do you suppose, Sir, and turned away her sweet face as we walked,--Do you
suppose that I had not thought of laying down a plan to govern myself by,
when I found myself so unhappily over-reached and cheated, as I may say,
out of myself--When I found, that I could not be, and do, what I wished
to be, and to do, do you imagine that I had not cast about, what was the
next proper course to take?--And do you believe that this next course has
not caused me some pain to be obliged to--

There again she stopt.

But let us break off discourse, resumed she. The subject grows too--She
sighed--Let us break off discourse--I will go in--I will prepare for
church--[The devil! thought I.] Well, as I can appear in those
every-day-worn clothes--looking upon herself--I will go to church.

She then turned from me to go into the house.

Bless me, my beloved creature, bless me with the continuance of this
affecting conversation.--Remorse has seized my heart!--I have been
excessively wrong--give me farther cause to curse my heedless folly, by