married neither surprised nor annoyed me. But I was plain. Ah, bosh! Oh!
Ah! I cannot express what kind of a feeling that fact gave me. It sank
into my heart and cut like a cruel jagged knife--not because it would be a
drawback to me in the marriage line, for I had an antipathy to the very
thought of marriage. Marriage to me appeared the most horribly tied-down
and unfair-to-women existence going. It would be from fair to middling if
there was love; but I laughed at the idea of love, and determined never,
never, never to marry.

The other side of the letter--the part which gave me joy--was the prospect
of going to Caddagat.

Caddagat, the place where I was born! Caddagat, whereat, enfolded in
grandmotherly love and the petting which accrued therefrom, I spent some
of my few sweet childish days. Caddagat, the place my heart fondly
enshrines as home. Caddagat, draped by nature in a dream of beauty.
Caddagat, Caddagat! Caddagat for me, Caddagat for ever! I say.

Too engrossed with my thoughts to feel the cold of the dull winter day, I
remained in my position against the wattle-tree until Gertie came to
inform me that tea was ready.

"You know, Sybylla, it was your turn to get the tea ready; but I set the
table to save you from getting into a row. Mother was looking for you,
and said she supposed you were in one of your tantrums again."

Pretty little peacemaker! She often did things like that for me.

"Very well, Gertie, thank you. I will set it two evenings running to make
up for it--if I'm here."