The Atlantic Monthly, Volume 03, No. 19, May, 1859 by Various
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I was about to leave the room, but he called me back. "Stay, child!" he said; "if I can speak in _her_ presence, it makes little difference that any one else should hear me. Agnes, little Agnes, you would not like to be quite alone;--let the child stay. Yet you know already that I am faithless to you. You know what I am going to tell you. I love you, passionately, as I have always loved you. But there are other passions hold me tighter. Money, and position,--I need them,--I cannot live without them. The first I have lost already, and the claims I have to reputation will follow soon. I am mad. I am flinging away happiness for the sake of its mask. Next week I marry riches,--a fortune. With the golden lady, I go to Europe. I forsake home,--my better self. I leave you, Agnes;--and you may thank God that I do leave you; I am not worthy of you." She lifted herself from the chair on which she was leaning, and walked towards him. She laid her hand upon his shoulder, and, white and pale, looked in his face. "Do not go, Ernest!" she said. "You are mine. A promise cannot be broken;--you are promised to me.--Stay,--do not go away!" "My beautiful Agnes!" he said, "do you come to lay your pure self down in the scale against my follies and all my passions? You stand before me too fair, too lovely for me. It is only in your presence that I can appear noble enough for you. Even here, by your side, I see the life I must lead with you, the struggle that you must share. In that life you would only see me fail. I am weak; I can never be strong. Let me go down the current. Your heart will not break;--I am not worth such a |
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