Continental Monthly, Vol. I, No. V, May, 1862 - Devoted To Literature And National Policy by Various
page 39 of 304 (12%)
page 39 of 304 (12%)
![]() | ![]() |
|
youth usually turns with an irresistible, magnet-like attraction. Little
did he dream that the person he addressed belonged to that very sex of which he spoke. One day he startled me by saying: 'What pretty hair you have, Eugene; it is as soft and fine as that of a young girl.' The conscious blush rushed to my face, for I thought he had surely discovered my secret; but one glance at his calm countenance reassured me. In his large, open, honest heart there never entered a suspicion of the 'base deception' that had been practiced upon him. He did not notice my emotion, and I answered, in as calm a voice as I could command: 'My mother had fine, soft hair; I have inherited it from her.' Thus passed a year, the happiest I had ever known. My master became kinder and more affectionate every day. He would often address me as '_mon fils_,' and seemed indeed to regard me with feelings as warm as those of a father to a son. And I--what were my sentiments toward this good and noble man who was so kind to me? I worshiped him; he was every thing to me. Father and mother were gone, sisters and brothers I had none, other friends I had never known. My master was all the world to me. To serve him was all I lived for. To love him, though with a love that could never be known, never be returned, was enough for me. I have said that I was happy; but there was one drawback to my happiness. It lay in the self-reproach I felt for the deception |
|