world frowning round me, I was tempted to think that the LORD had
forsaken me. I found great relief from the contemplation of these words
in Isaiah xlix. v. 16. _"Behold I have graven thee on the palms of my
hands; thy walls are continually before me."_ And very many comfortable
promises were sweetly applied to me. The lxxxix. Psalm and 34th verse,
_"My covenant will I not break nor alter the thing that is gone out of
my lips."_ Hebrews, chap. xvi. v. 17, 18. Phillipians, chap. i. v. 6;
and several more.

As I had now lost all my dear and valued friends every place in the
world was alike to me. I had for a great while entertain'd a desire to
come to England.--I imagined that all the Inhabitants of this Island
were _Holy_; because all those that had visited my Master from thence
were good, (Mr. Whitefield was his particular friend) and the authors of
the books that had been given me were all English. But above all places
in the world I wish'd to see Kidderminster, for I could not but think
that on the spot where Mr. Baxter had liv'd, and preach'd, the people
must be all _Righteous_.

The situation of my affairs requir'd that I should tarry a little
longer in New-York, as I was something in debt, and was embarrass'd how
to pay it.--About this time a young Gentleman that was a particular
acquaintance of one of my young Master's, pretended to be a friend to
me, and promis'd to pay my debts, which was three pounds; and he assur'd
me he would never expect the money again.--But, in less than a month, he
came and demanded it; and when I assur'd him I had nothing to pay, he
threatened to sell me.--Though I knew he had no right to do that, yet as
I had no friend in the world to go to, it alarm'd me greatly.--At length
he purpos'd my going a Privateering, that I might by these means, be
enabled to pay him, to which I agreed.--Our Captain's name was ---- I