Bella Donna - A Novel by Robert Smythe Hichens
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one he admired and liked. He perhaps felt Isaacson's want of sympathy,
even direct hostility. On the other hand, he might have been embarrassed by a sense of some obscure self-betrayal. Often men talk of uplifting others just before they fall down themselves. Was he going to embark on a liaison with this woman whom he pitied? And was he ashamed of the deed in advance? A marriage would be such madness! Yet something in Isaacson at this moment almost wished that Nigel contemplated marriage--his secret admiration of the virtue in his friend. Such an act would be of a piece with Nigel's character, whereas a liaison--and yet Nigel was no saint. Isaacson thought what the world would say, and suddenly he knew the reality of his affection for Nigel. The idea of the gossip pained, almost shocked him; of the gossip and bitter truths. A liaison would bring forth almost disgusted and wholly ironical laughter at the animal passions of man, as blatantly shown by Nigel. And a marriage? Well, the verdict on that would be, "Cracky!" Isaacson's brain could not dispute the fact that there would be justice in that verdict. Yet who does not secretly love the fighter for lost causes? "I shall look after her." The expression fitted best the cruder, more sordid method of gaining possession of this woman. And men seem made for falling. The nargeeleh was finished, but still Isaacson sat there. Whatever happened, he would never protest to Nigel. The _feu sacré_ in the man |
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