August First by Mary Raymond Shipman Andrews;Roy Irving Murray
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unflinching eyes of the man gazed at the girl as she talked.
She talked rapidly, eagerly, as if each word lifted pressure. "It's this way--I'm ill--hopelessly ill. Yes--it's absolutely so. I've got to die. Two doctors said so. But I'll live--maybe five years--possibly ten. I'm twenty-three now--and I may live ten years. But if I do that--if I live five years even--most of it will be as a helpless invalid--I'll have to get stiff, you know." There was a rather dreadful levity in the way she put it. "Stiffer and stiffer--till I harden into one position, sitting or lying down, immovable. I'll have to go on living that way--years, you see. I'll have to choose which way. Isn't it hideous? And I'll go on living that way, you see. Me. You don't know, of course, but it seems particularly hideous, because I'm not a bit an immovable sort. I ride and play tennis and dance, all those things, more than most people. I care about them--a lot." One could see it in the vivid pose of the figure. "And, you know, it's really too much to expect. I _won't_ stiffen gently into a live corpse. No!" The sliding, clear voice was low, but the "no" meant itself. From the quiet figure by the window came no response; the girl could see the man's face only indistinctly in the dim, storm-washed light; receding thunder growled now and again and the noise of the rain came in soft, fierce waves; at times, lightning flashed a weird clearness over the details of the room and left them vaguer. "Why don't you say something?" the girl threw at him. "What do you think? Say it." "Are you going to tell me the rest?" the man asked quietly. |
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