Some Short Stories [by Henry James] by Henry James
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putting it away he held it poised and trickling over the rug, and I
then became aware that he was looking at me with deep acknowledging eyes--his air of universal responsibility. I immediately understood--there was scarce need of question and answer as they passed between us. When I took in that our good friend had given up as never before, though only for the occasion, I exclaimed dolefully: "What a difference it will make--and to how many people!" "I shall be one of them, sir!" said Brooksmith; and that was the beginning of the end. Mr. Offord came down again, but the spell was broken, the great sign being that the conversation was for the first time not directed. It wandered and stumbled, a little frightened, like a lost child--it had let go the nurse's hand. "The worst of it is that now we shall talk about my health--c'est la fin de tout," Mr. Offord said when he reappeared; and then I recognised what a note of change that would be--for he had never tolerated anything so provincial. We "ran" to each other's health as little as to the daily weather. The talk became ours, in a word--not his; and as ours, even when HE talked, it could only be inferior. In this form it was a distress to Brooksmith, whose attention now wandered from it altogether: he had so much closer a vision of his master's intimate conditions than our superficialities represented. There were better hours, and he was more in and out of the room, but I could see he was conscious of the decline, almost of the collapse, of our great institution. He seemed to wish to take counsel with me about it, to feel responsible for its going on in some form or other. When for the second period--the first had lasted several |
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