favourites of a court; and now was I a stranger, unknown,
unesteemed, nay, condemned, obliged to endure the extremes of cold,
hunger, and thirst; to wander many a weary mile, suffering both in
body and mind, while every step led me farther from her whom most I
loved, and dearest; yet had I no fixed plan, no certain knowledge in
what these my labours and sufferings should end.

I was too proud to discover myself; and, indeed, to whom could I
discover myself in a strange land? My name might have availed me in
Austria, but in Austria, where this name was known, would I not
remain; rather than seek my fortune there, I was determined to shun
whatever might tend to render me suspicious in the eyes of my
country. How liable was a temper so ardent as mine, in the midst of
difficulties, fatigues, and disappointments, hard to endure, to
betray me into all those errors of which rash youth, unaccustomed to
hardship, impatient of contrariety, are so often guilty! But I had
taken my resolution, and my faithful Schell, to whom hunger or ease,
contempt or fame, for my sake, were become indifferent, did whatever
I desired.

Once more to my journal.

Feb. 1.--We proceeded four miles from Biala to Oswintzen, I having
determined to ask aid from my sister, who had married Waldow, and
lived much at her case on a fine estate at Hanmer, in Brandenburg,
between Lansberg, on the Warta and Meseritsch, a frontier town of
Poland. For this reason we continued our route all along the
Silesian confines to Meseritsch.

Feb. 2.--To Bobrek and Elkusch, five miles. We suffered much this