Women in the Life of Balzac by Juanita Helm Floyd
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the great wrong involved in her lack of affection for Honore and his
sister Laure. But she never gave him the attentions that he longed for. In May, 1840, he wrote to Madame Hanska that he was especially sad on the day of his _fete catholique_ (May 16) as, since the death of Madame de Berny, there was no one to observe this occasion, though during her life every day was a _fete_ day; he was too busy to join with his sister Laure in the mutual observance of their birthdays, and his mother cared little for him; once the Duchesse de Castries had sent him a most beautiful bouquet,--but now there was no one. The same year (1840) he took his mother to live with him _Aux jardies_. This he regarded as an additional burden. Her continual harassing him for the money he still owed her, her nervous and discordant disposition, her constant intrigues to force him to marry, and her numerous little acts that placed him in positions beneath the dignity of an author's standing were an incessant source of annoyance to him. She did not remain with him long, but he tried to perform his filial duties and make her comfortable, as various letters show. One of these reads as follows: "My dear Mother,--It is very difficult for me to enter into the engagement you ask of me, and to do so without reflection would entail consequences most serious both for you and for myself. The money necessary for my existence is, as it were, wrung from what should go to pay my debts, and hard work it is to get it. The sort of life I lead is suitable for no one; it wears out relations and friends; all fly from my dreary house. My affairs will become more and more difficult to manage, not to say impossible. The failure |
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