"We had to give some entertainments soon afterwards. The minister and
his wife, with some other friends, came to tea, and the conversation
turned on parties and the dullness of winter evenings if no amusements
were provided. I maintained that rational human beings ought not to be
dependent upon childish games, but ought to be able to occupy
themselves and interest themselves with talk. Talk, I said--not
gossip, but talk--pleases me better than chess or forfeits; and the
lines of Cowper occurred to me -


'When one, that holds communion with the skies,
Has filled his urn where these pure waters rise,
And once more mingles with us meaner things,
'Tis even as if an angel shook his wings;
Immortal fragrance fills the circuit wide,
That tells us whence his treasures are supplied.'


I ventured to repeat this verse, and when I had finished, there was a
pause for a moment, which was broken by my husband's saying to the
minister's wife who sat next to him, 'Oh, Mrs. Cook, I quite forgot to
express my sympathy with you; I heard that you had lost your cat.' The
blow was deliberately administered, and I felt it as an insult. I was
wrong, I know. I was ignorant of the ways of the world, and I ought to
have been aware of the folly of placing myself above the level of my
guests, and of the extreme unwisdom of revealing myself in that
unguarded way to strangers. Two or three more experiences of that kind
taught me to close myself carefully to all the world, and to beware how
I uttered anything more than commonplace. But I was young, and ought
to have been pardoned. I felt the sting of self-humiliation far into