myself in morbidness and depression."

Early in March she leaves Rome, consoled with the thought of returning
the following winter. In June she was in England again, and spent
the summer at Malvern. Disease was no doubt already beginning to
prey upon her, for she was oppressed at times by a languor and
heaviness amounting almost to lethargy. When she returned to London,
however, in September, she felt quite well again, and started for
another tour in Holland, which she enjoyed as much as before. She
then settled in Paris, to await the time when she could return to
Italy. But she was attacked at once with grave and alarming symptoms,
that betokened a fatal end to her malady. Entirely ignorant, however,
of the danger that threatened her, she kept up courage and hope,
made plans for the journey, and looked forward to setting out at
any moment. But the weeks passed and the months also; slowly and
gradually the hope faded. The journey to Italy must be given up;
she was not in condition to be brought home, and she reluctantly
resigned herself to remain where she was and "convalesce," as she
confidently believed, in the spring. Once again came the analogy,
which she herself pointed out now, to Heine on his mattress-grave
in Paris. She, too, the last time she went out, dragged herself to
the Louvre, to the feet of the Venus, "the goddess without arms, who
could not help." Only her indomitable will and intense desire to
live seemed to keep her alive. She sunk to a very low ebb, but, as
she herself expressed it, she "seemed to have always one little
window looking out into life," and in the spring she rallied
sufficiently to take a few drives and to sit on the balcony of her
apartment. She came back to life with a feverish sort of thirst and
avidity. "No such cure for pessimism," she says, "as a severe
illness;