Fennel and Rue by William Dean Howells
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incident which he had done his utmost to close, when he found himself
expecting an answer of some sort from his unknown correspondent. He perceived, then, without owning the fact, that he had really hoped for some protest, some excuse, some extenuation, which in the end would suffer him to be more merciful. Though he had wished to crush her into silence, and to forbid her all hope of his forgiveness, he had, in a manner, not meant to do it. He had kept a secret place in his soul where the sinner against him could find refuge from his justice, and when this sanctuary remained unattempted he found himself with a regret that he had barred the way to it so effectually. The regret was so vague, so formless, however, that he could tacitly deny it to himself at all times, and explicitly deny it to his mother at such times as her touch taught him that it was tangible. One day, after ten or twelve days had gone by, she asked him, "You haven't heard anything more from that girl?" "What girl?" he returned, as if he did not know; and he frowned. "You mean the girl that wrote me about my story?" He continued to frown rather more darkly. "I don't see how you could expect me to hear from her, after what I wrote. But, to be categorical, I haven't, mother." "Oh, of course not. Did you think she would be so easily silenced?" "I did what I could to crush her into silence." "Yes, and you did quite right; I am more and more convinced of that. But such a very tough young person might have refused to stay crushed. She |
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