The Unclassed by George Gissing
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happiness, and I could not help hoping."
"And you still wait--still hope?" Ida made no direct answer. She gazed far off at the indistinguishable border-land of sea and sky, and when she spoke it was in a softened tone. "When I was here last, I was seven years old. Now I am not quite nineteen. How long I have lived since then--how long! Yet my life didnot really begin till I was about eleven. Till then I was a happy child, understanding nothing. Between then and now, if I have discovered little good either in myself or in others, I have learned by heart everything that is bad in the world. Nothing in meanness or vileness or wretchedness is a secret to me. Compare me with other girls of nineteen--perhaps still at school. What sort of a companion should I be for one of those, I wonder! What strange thoughts I should have, if ever I talked with such a girl; how old I should feel myself beside her!" "Your knowledge is better in my eyes than their ignorance. My ideal woman is the one who, knowing every darkest secret of life, keeps yet a pure mind--as you do, Ida." She was silent so long that Waymark spoke again. "Your mother died when you were eleven!" "Yes, and that was when my life began. My mother was very poor, but she managed to send me to a pretty good school. But for that, my |
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