The Price She Paid by David Graham Phillips
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had not nearly so good a voice as she, but it was reliable.
``There is nothing I can do--nothing!'' All at once, with no apparent bridge across the vast chasm, her heart went out, not in pity but in human understanding and sisterly sympathy, to the women of the pariah class at whom, during her stops in New York, she had sometimes gazed in wonder and horror. ``Why, we and they are only a step apart,'' she said to herself in amazement. ``We and they are much nearer than my maid or the cook and they!'' And then her heart skipped a beat and her skin grew cold and a fog swirled over her brain. If she should be cast out--if she could find no work and no one to support her--would she-- ``O my God!'' she moaned. ``I must be crazy, to think such thoughts. I never could! I'd die first--DIE!'' But if anyone had pictured to her the kind of life she was now leading--the humiliation and degradation she was meekly enduring with no thought of flight, with an ever stronger desire to stay on, regardless of pride and self-respect--if anyone had pictured this to her as what she would endure, what would she have said? She could see herself flashing scornful denial, saying that she would rather kill herself. Yet she was living--and was not even contemplating suicide as a way out! A few days after Presbury gave her warning, her |
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