Fletcher of Madeley by Brigadier Margaret Allen
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was walking I met with a poor old woman, who talked so sweetly of
Jesus Christ that I knew not how the time passed away." "I shall wonder," said Mrs. Hill, "if our tutor does not turn Methodist by-and-by." "Methodist, Madame!" asked he, puzzled; "pray what is that?" "Why, the Methodists are a people that do nothing but pray," was her rejoinder; "they are praying all day and all night." "Are they? Then by the help of God I _will_ find them out," said he decidedly. He not only "found them out," but joined a Methodist society, meeting with them whenever an opportunity presented itself. Fletcher could not readily rid himself of the idea that "much doing" would make him acceptable unto God. Gradually, however, he was brought to consider the value of "saving faith," and writes in his diary:-- "Instead of going straight to Christ I have lost my time in fighting against sin with the dim light of reason, and the use of the means of grace. I fear my notions of Christ are only speculative, and do not reach the heart. _I never had faith_, and without faith it is impossible to please God. Then every thought, word, and work of mine have only been sin and wickedness before God, though ever so specious before men. All my righteousness is as filthy rags. I am a very devil, though of an inferior sort, and if I am not renewed before I go hence, hell will be my portion to all eternity.... |
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