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Romany of the Snows, Continuation of "Pierre and His People" by Gilbert Parker
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He left an opiate to procure the sleep, the same that had been given to
the mother. If it did not sleep, it would die. Pierre was present at this
time.

All through the child's illness the old man's mind had been tossed to and
fro. If the child died, the living stigma would be gone; there would be
no reminder of his daughter's shame in the eyes of the world. They could
go away from Bamber's Boom, and begin life again somewhere. But, then,
there was the child itself which had crept into his heart,--he knew not
how, and would not be driven out. He had never, till it was taken ill,
even touched it, nor spoken to it. To destroy its life!--Well, would it
not be better for the child to go out of all possible shame, into peace,
the peace of the grave?

This night he sat down beside the cradle, holding the bottle of medicine
and a spoon in his hand. The hot, painful face of the child fascinated
him. He looked from it to the bottle, and back, then again to the bottle.
He started, and the sweat stood out on his forehead. For though the
doctor had told him in words the proper dose, he had by mistake written
on the label the same dose as for the mother! Here was the responsibility
shifted in any case. More than once the old man uncorked the bottle, and
once he dropped out the opiate in the spoon steadily; but the child
opened its suffering eyes at him, its little wasted hand wandered over
the coverlet, and he could not do it just then. But again the passion for
its destruction came on him, because he heard his daughter moaning in the
other room. He said to himself that she would be happier when it was
gone. But as he stooped over the cradle, no longer hesitating, the door
softly opened, and Pierre entered. The old man shuddered, and drew back
from the cradle. Pierre saw the look of guilt in the old man's face, and
his instinct told him what was happening. He took the bottle from the
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