A Personal Record by Joseph Conrad
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at birth of all the children. For years I remained so delicate that my
parents had but little hope of bringing me up; and yet I have survived five brothers and two sisters, and many of my contemporaries; I have outlived my wife and daughter, too--and from all those who have had some knowledge at least of these old times you alone are left. It has been my lot to lay in an early grave many honest hearts, many brilliant promises, many hopes full of life." He got up briskly, sighed, and left me saying, "We will dine in half an hour." Without moving, I listened to his quick steps resounding on the waxed floor of the next room, traversing the anteroom lined with bookshelves, where he paused to put his chibouk in the pipe-stand before passing into the drawing-room (these were all en suite), where he became inaudible on the thick carpet. But I heard the door of his study-bedroom close. He was then sixty-two years old and had been for a quarter of a century the wisest, the firmest, the most indulgent of guardians, extending over me a paternal care and affection, a moral support which I seemed to feel always near me in the most distant parts of the earth. As to Mr. Nicholas B., sub-lieutenant of 1808, lieutenant of 1813 in the French army, and for a short time _Officier d'Ordonnance_ of Marshal Marmont; afterward captain in the 2d Regiment of Mounted Rifles in the Polish army--such as it existed up to 1830 in the reduced kingdom established by the Congress of Vienna--I must say that from all that more distant past, known to me traditionally and a little _de visu_, and called out by the words of the man just gone away, he remains the most incomplete figure. It is obvious that I must have seen him in '64, for it is certain that he would not have missed the opportunity of seeing my |
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