father, who was concealed "on the underground," among friends; and that
night drive, with its haste and its apprehension, was so of a piece with
the times, that I can hardly separate it from them in my memory. We were
all being carried along in an uncontrollable sweep of tragic events. In
a sort of blindness, like the night, unable to see the nearest fork of
the road ahead of us, we were being driven to a future that held we knew
not what.

I was with my brother Abraham (soon to become an apostle of the Mormon
Church), who had himself been in prison and was still in danger of
arrest. And there is something typical of those days in the recollection
I have of him in the carriage: silent, self-contained, and--when he
talked--discussing trivialities in the most calm way in the world. The
whole district was picketed with deputy marshals; we did not know that
we were not being followed; we had always the sense of evading patrols
in an enemy's country. But this feeling was so old with us that it had
become a thing of no regard.

There was something even more typical in the personality of our driver--
a giant of a man named Charles Wilcken--a veteran of the German army
who had been decorated with the Iron Cross for bravery on the field of
battle. He had come to Utah with General Johnston's forces in 1858, and
had left the military service to attach himself to Brigham Young. After
Young's death, my father had succeeded to the first place in his
affections. He was an elder of the Church; he had been an aristocrat in
his own country; but he forgot his every personal interest in his
loyalty to his leaders, and he stood at all times ready to defend them
with his life--as a hundred thousand others did!--for, though the
Mormons did not resist the processes of law for themselves, except by
evasion, they were prepared to protect their leaders, if necessary, by