'I do love Thee,' she wrote in the same little diary, 'but I want to love
Thee more.'

It was not till many years later that Catherine received the blessing of
a clean heart; but even now she had begun to desire and long for it. She
also writes at this time: 'I see that this Full Salvation is very
necessary if I am to glorify God below, and find my way to Heaven. I want
a _clean_ heart. Lord, take me and seal me.'

Some people, even after they are converted, are too proud to own
themselves wrong, or to confess when they have sinned. Catherine was not
of that sort. In one of her letters to her mother she ends with these
words:--

'Pray for me, dear mother, and believe me, with all my faults and
besetments, your loving child.'

Her hunger after a holy life was real and practical. She knew she must
learn to live by method--that is, doing right, whether she liked it or
not--and not by feelings, if she was to be of use in the world.

So at the end of the year she wrote some new resolutions; and as they may
be of help to you, I will copy them for you just as she put them down:--

'I have been writing a few daily rules for the coming year, which I hope
will prove a blessing to me, by the grace of God. I have got a paper of
printed rules also, which I intend to read once a week. May the Lord help
me to keep to them! But, above all, I am determined to search the
Scriptures more attentively, for in them I have eternal life. I have read