couldn't understand) and then he said, you attend to your school books
and leave the girls and the married women alone you pitiful scoundrel.
And Dora said. Ah, now I understand and I said: Please tell me, he is my
brother as well as yours. But she said: "You wouldn't understand. It's
not suitable for such young ears." Fancy that, it's suitable for her
ears, but not mine though she's not quite three years older than I am,
but because she no longer wears a short skirt she gives herself the airs
of a grown-up _lady_. Such airs, and then she sneaks a great spoonful of
jam so that her mouth is stuffed with it and she can't speak. Whenever
I see her do this, I make a point of speaking to her so that she has to
answer. She does get in such a wax.

October 9th. I know all about it now. . . That's how babies come. And
_that_ is what Robert really meant. Not for me, thank you, I simply
won't marry. For if one marries one has to do it; it hurts frightfully
and yet one has to. What a good thing that I know it in time. But I wish
I knew exactly how, Hella says she doesn't know exactly herself. But
perhaps her cousin who knows everything about it will tell her. It
lasts nine months till the baby comes and then a lot of women die. It's
horrible. Hella has known it for a long time but she didn't like to tell
me. A girl told her last summer in the country. She wanted to talk about
it to Lizzi her sister, really she only wanted to ask if it was all true
and Lizzi ran off to her mother to tell her what Hella had said And her
mother said; "These children are awful, a corrupt generation, don't you
dare to repeat it to any other girl, to Grete Lainer, for instance," and
she gave her a box on the ear. As if she could help it! That is why she
didn't write to me for such a long time. Poor thing, poor thing, but now
she can tell me all about it and we won't betray one another. And that
deceitful cat Inspee has known all about it for ages and has never told
me. But I don't understand why that time at the swing Robert said: You