except that he has talks with Mother sometimes. He always pretends that
he wants to read, but it's absurd, for with such a love trouble one
can't really read. I have not told Berta Franke all about it, but only
that my brother has had an unhappy love affair and that is why he is
back in Vienna. Then she told us that this summer a cousin of hers shot
himself because of her. They said in the newspapers that it was because
of an actress, but really it was because of her. She is 14 already.

October 20th. We spend most of our time now with Berta Franke. She says
she has had a tremendous lot of experience, but she can't tell us yet
because we are not intimate enough. By and by she says. Perhaps she
is afraid we shall give her away. She wants to marry when she is 16 at
latest. That's in 2 years. Of course she won't have finished school by
then, but she will have left the third class. She has three admirers,
but she has not yet made up her mind which to choose. Hella says I
mustn't believe all this, that the story about the three admirers at
once is certainly a cram.

October 21st. Berta Franke says that when one is dark under the eyes one
has it and that when one gets a baby then one doesn't have it any more
until one gets another. She told us too how one gets it, but I didn't
really believe what she said, for I thought she did not know herself
exactly. Then she got very cross and said: "All right, I won't tell you
any more. If I don't know myself." But I can't believe what she said
about husband and wife. She said it must happen every night, for if not
they don't have a baby; if they miss a single night they don't have a
baby. That's why they have their beds so close together. People call
them _marriage beds!!!_ And it hurts so frightfully that one can hardly
bear it. But one has to for a husband can make his wife do it. I should
like to know how he can make her. But I didn't dare to ask for I was