Ernest Maltravers — Volume 08 by Baron Edward Bulwer Lytton Lytton
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"And you, Mr. Maltravers," turning quickly round--"you--have you
friends? Do you feel that there are, I do not say public, but private affections and duties, for which life is made less a possession than a trust?" "Lady Florence--no!--I have friends, it is true, and Cleveland is of the nearest; but the life within life--the second self, in whom we vest the right and mastery over our own being--I know it not. But is it," he added, after a pause, "a rare privation? Perhaps it is a happy one. I have learned to lean on my own soul, and not look elsewhere for the reeds that a wind can break." "Ah, it is a cold philosophy--you may reconcile yourself to its wisdom in the world, in the hum and shock of men; but in solitude, with Nature--ah, no! While the mind alone is occupied, you may be contented with the pride of stoicism; but there are moments when the /heart/ wakens as from a sleep--wakens like a frightened child--to feel itself alone and in the dark." Ernest was silent, and Florence continued, in an altered voice: "This is a strange conversation--and you must think me indeed a wild, romance-reading person, as the world is apt to call me. But if I live--I--pshaw!--life denies ambition to women." "If a woman like you, Lady Florence, should ever love, it will be one in whose career you may perhaps find that noblest of all ambitions--the ambition women only feel--the ambition for another!" "Ah! but I shall never love," said Lady Florence, and her cheek grew pale as the starlight shone on it; "still, perhaps," she added quickly, |
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