Godolphin, Volume 6. by Baron Edward Bulwer Lytton Lytton
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uncertainty that must now perplex you; without leading this dangerous and
roving life, which must at times expose you to insult, to annoyance, and discontent you with, yourself." "You are mistaken, lady," said the astrologer, proudly; "none know me who do not fear. I am powerful, and I hug my power--it comforts me: without it, what should I be?--an abject, forsaken, miserable woman. No! that power I possess--to shake men's secret souls--even if it be a deceit--even if I should laugh at them, not pity--reconciles me to myself and to the past. And I am not poor, madam," as, with the common caprice of her infirmity, an angry suspicion seemed to cross her; "I want no one's charity, I have learned to maintain myself. Nay, I could be even wealthy if I would!" "And," said Constance, seeing that for the present she must postpone her benevolent intentions, "and he--Godolphin--you forgive him still?" At that name, it was as if a sudden charm had been whispered to the fevered heart of the poor fanatic; her head sank from its proud bearing; a deep, a soft blush coloured the wan cheek; her arms drooped beside her; she trembled violently; and, after a moment's silence, sank again on her seat and covered her face with her hands. "Ah!" said she, softly, "that word brings me back to my young days, when I asked no power but what love gave me over one heart: it brings me back to the blue Italian lake, and the waving pines, and our solitary home, and my babe's distant grave. Tell me," she cried, again starting up, "has he not spoken of me lately--has he not seen me in his dreams? have I not been present to his soul when the frame, torpid and locked, severed us no more, and, in the still hours, I charmed myself to his gaze? Tell me, has he not owned that Lucilla haunted his pillow? Tell me; and if I err, my spells are nothing, |
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