looked up, and she threw a handful of ashes in mine eyes. I
thought I should have been quite blinded, and have never seen
more, but lying down, the water run out of my eyes, and carried
the dirt with it, that by the morning I recovered my sight
again. Yet upon this, and the like occasions, I hope it is not
too much to say with Job, "Have pity upon me, O ye my Friends,
for the Hand of the Lord has touched me." And here I cannot but
remember how many times sitting in their wigwams, and musing on
things past, I should suddenly leap up and run out, as if I had
been at home, forgetting where I was, and what my condition was;
but when I was without, and saw nothing but wilderness, and
woods, and a company of barbarous heathens, my mind quickly
returned to me, which made me think of that, spoken concerning
Sampson, who said, "I will go out and shake myself as at other
times, but he wist not that the Lord was departed from him."
About this time I began to think that all my hopes of
restoration would come to nothing. I thought of the English
army, and hoped for their coming, and being taken by them, but
that failed. I hoped to be carried to Albany, as the Indians
had discoursed before, but that failed also. I thought of being
sold to my husband, as my master spake, but instead of that, my
master himself was gone, and I left behind, so that my spirit
was now quite ready to sink. I asked them to let me go out and
pick up some sticks, that I might get alone, and pour out my
heart unto the Lord. Then also I took my Bible to read, but I
found no comfort here neither, which many times I was wont to
find. So easy a thing it is with God to dry up the streams of
Scripture comfort from us. Yet I can say, that in all my
sorrows and afflictions, God did not leave me to have my
impatience work towards Himself, as if His ways were