From One Generation to Another by Henry Seton Merriman
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the report of his death uncontradicted. It was morally certain that five
weeks before that day Anna Hethbridge had read the news in the printed column lying before him. He resolved to leave her in ignorance of its falseness. Seymour Michael was not, however, a selfish man. All that he did at this time, and later in life--all the lives that he ruined--the hearts he broke--the men he sacrificed were not offered upon the altar of Self (though the distinction may appear subtle), but sold to his career. Career was this man's god. He wanted to be great, and rich, and powerful; and yet he was conscious of having no definite use for greatness, or riches, or power when acquired. Here again was the taint of the blood that ran in his veins. The curse had reached him--in addition to the long, sad nose and the bandy legs. The sense of enjoyment was never to be his. The greed of gain--gain of any sort--filled his heart, and _ennui_ secretly nestling in his soul said: "Thou shalt possess, but not enjoy." He was conscious of this voice, but did not understand it then. He only burned to possess; looking to possession to provide enjoyment. In this he was not quite alone--with him in his error are all men and women. And so we talk of Love coming after marriage--and so women marry without Love, believing that it will follow. God help them! That which comes afterwards is not even the ghost of Love, it is only Custom. This was the spirit of Seymour Michael. He had already acquired one or two objects of a vague ambition; and, possessing them, had only learnt to be accustomed to them--not to value them. There was no elation in the thought that he was freed from the encumbrance of Anna Hethbridge by a chance misprint. Neither was there hesitation in turning accident ruthlessly to his own advantage. There was |
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