England, My England by D. H. (David Herbert) Lawrence
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Bit by bit, like a doom came the necessity to know. He was hit in the head. It was only a vague surmise at first. But in the swinging of the pendulum of pain, swinging ever nearer and nearer, to touch him into an agony of consciousness and a consciousness of agony, gradually the knowledge emerged--he must be hit in the head--hit on the left brow; if so, there would be blood--was there blood?--could he feel blood in his left eye? Then the clanging seemed to burst the membrane of his brain, like death-madness. Was there blood on his face? Was hot blood flowing? Or was it dry blood congealing down his cheek? It took him hours even to ask the question: time being no more than an agony in darkness, without measurement. A long time after he had opened his eyes he realized he was seeing something--something, something, but the effort to recall what was too great. No, no; no recall! Were they the stars in the dark sky? Was it possible it was stars in the dark sky? Stars? The world? Ah, no, he could not know it! Stars and the world were gone for him, he closed his eyes. No stars, no sky, no world. No, No! The thick darkness of blood alone. It should be one great lapse into the thick darkness of blood in agony. Death, oh, death! The world all blood, and the blood all writhing with death. The soul like the tiniest little light out on a dark sea, the sea of blood. And the light guttering, beating, pulsing in a windless storm, wishing it could go out, yet unable. There had been life. There had been Winifred and his children. But the |
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