The Golden Calf by M. E. (Mary Elizabeth) Braddon
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that insipid fare almost choked her. Her mind was overcharged with
thought and wonder. Could he have meant all or half he said just now?--this young man with the delicate features, pale complexion, and thin lips. He had seemed intensely earnest. Those gray eyes of his, somewhat too pale of hue for absolutely beauty, had glowed with a fire which even Ida's inexperience recognised as something above and beyond common feeling. His hand had trembled as it clasped hers. Could there be such a thing as love at first sight? and was she destined to be the object of that romantic passion? She had read of the triumphs of beauty, and she knew that she was handsome. She had been told the fact in too many ways--by praise sometimes, but much more often by envy--to remain unconscious of her charms. She was scornful of her beauty, inclined to undervalue the gift as compared with the blessings of other girls--a prosperous home, the world's respect, the means to gratify the natural yearnings of youth--but she knew that she was beautiful. And now it seemed to her all at once that beauty was a much more valuable gift than she had supposed hitherto--indeed, a kind of talisman or Aladdin's lamp, which could win for her all she wanted in this world--Wendover Abbey and the position of a country squire's wife. It was not a dazzling or giddy height to which to aspire; but to Ida just now it seemed the topmost pinnacle of social success. 'Oh, what a wretch I am!' she said to herself presently; 'what a despicable, mercenary creature! I don't care a straw for this man; and yet I am already thinking of myself as his wife.' And then, remembering how she had once openly declared her intention of marrying for money, she shrugged her shoulders disdainfully. |
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