or blistered my face with steam from the kettle! That would be frightful,
now. It's the least I can do for Prof. Darmstetter to keep free from harm
the beauty he gives me. And besides,--I never before was afraid, but now I
go scurrying through the halls and up and down the stairs like a wild
thing; the place is so public, so many people notice me.

I wonder if I couldn't talk to Mrs. Baker. She's at home now. Or there's
the Judge's sister, Miss Marcia, the dearest old maid. I've only seen her
once or twice, but I believe she'd be good to know.

I have too many problems to stay here. I must make some settled plan, now
that my life means so much to all the women in the world. And--how to deal
with a headstrong young man who won't take "no" for an answer or "wait"
for wisdom I simply don't know. If he would only give me time to make my
own acquaintance! There are so many things to think of. A great world is
open to me. I have the key and I am going to live the most beautiful life.

I must think and plan and learn how not to be frightened at my own face in
the mirror; I must--I simply _must_ have time.

* * * * *

Dec. 17.

I have just seen John again; he came up to Barnard, which won't do at all.
And he came home with me, and--how he loves me!

But I can manage him. Indeed, he was more reasonable to-day.