Helbeck of Bannisdale — Volume II by Mrs. Humphry Ward
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amusements--while our Lord went alone to the Mount of Olives. It was
evening. The path seemed to me steep and weary--and He was bent with fatigue. At first He was all alone--darkness hung over the hill and the olive gardens. Then, suddenly, I became aware of forms that followed Him, at a long distance--saints, virgins, martyrs, confessors. They swept along in silence. I could just see them as a dim majestic crowd. Presently, a form detached itself from the crowd--to my amazement, I saw _you_ distinctly--there seemed to be a special light upon your face. And the rest appeared to fall back. Soon I only saw the Form toiling in front, and you following. Then at the brow of the hill the Lord turned--and you, who were half-way up the last steep, paused also. The Lord beckoned to you. His Divine face was full of sweetness and encouragement--and you made a spring towards Him. Then something happened--something horrible--but I could hardly see what. But a figure seemed to snatch at you from behind--you stumbled--then you fell headlong. A black cloud fell from the sky--and covered you. I heard a wailing cry--I saw the Lord's face darkened--and immediately afterwards the train of saints swept past me once more, with bent heads, beating their breasts. I cannot describe the extraordinary vividness of it! The succession of thoughts and images never paused; and when I woke, or seemed to wake, I found myself bathed in sweat and nearly fainting." There was a dead silence. The scholastic began again, in still more rapid and troubled tones, to excuse himself. Mr. Helbeck might well think it presumption on his part to have repeated such a thing. He could only plead a strange pressure on his conscience--a sense of obligation. The fact was probably nothing--meant nothing. But if calamity came--if it meant calamity--and he had not delivered his message--would there not have been a burden on |
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