Blackwood's Edinburgh Magazine — Volume 54, No. 335, September 1843 by Various
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midnight, I was occupied in arranging for the engagements of the coming
day. Legitimate and profitable business was neglected; lost sight of, and all my faculties were engrossed in the one great object of obtaining _money_ to appease the present and the pressing importunity. In the midst of my trouble, I was thrown, for the first time, upon a bed of sickness. I was attacked with fever, but I rallied in a day or two, and was prepared once more to cast myself into the vortex from which I saw no hope or possibility of escape. It was the evening before the day on which I had determined to resume the whirl of my sickening occupation. I was in bed, and, tired with the thought that weighed upon my brain, had fallen into a temporary sleep, from which I woke too soon, to find my wife, now about to become a mother, weeping as if her heart were broken, at my side. Trouble, sir, had soured my temper, and I had ceased to be as tender as she deserved. I was base enough to speak unkindly to her. "'You are discontented, Anna,' I exclaimed. You are not satisfied--you repent now that you married me'--I see you do.' "'Warton,' she exclaimed, 'if you love me, leave this cruel business. Let us live upon a crust. I will work for you. I will submit to any thing to see you calm and happy. This will kill you.' "'It will, it must!' I cried out in misery. 'I cannot help it. What is to be done?' "'Retire from it--resign all--every thing--but save us both. This agitation--this ceaseless wear and tear--must eventually, and soon, destroy you. What, then, becomes of me?' "'Show me, Anna, how I can do what you desire with honour. Show me the |
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