Scenes from a Courtesan's Life by Honoré de Balzac
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"By what other name can you call a love that is not eternal, that does not unite us in the future life of the Christian, to the being we love?" "Ah, I will be a Catholic!" she cried in a hollow, vehement tone, that would have earned her the mercy of the Lord. "Can a girl who has received neither the baptism of the Church nor that of knowledge; who can neither read, nor write, nor pray; who cannot take a step without the stones in the street rising up to accuse her; noteworthy only for the fugitive gift of beauty which sickness may destroy to-morrow; can such a vile, degraded creature, fully aware too of her degradation--for if you had been ignorant of it and less devoted, you would have been more excusable--can the intended victim to suicide and hell hope to be the wife of Lucien de Rubempre?" Every word was a poniard thrust piercing the depths of her heart. At every word the louder sobs and abundant tears of the desperate girl showed the power with which light had flashed upon an intelligence as pure as that of a savage, upon a soul at length aroused, upon a nature over which depravity had laid a sheet of foul ice now thawed in the sunshine of faith. "Why did I not die!" was the only thought that found utterance in the midst of a torrent of ideas that racked and ravaged her brain. "My daughter," said the terrible judge, "there is a love which is unconfessed before men, but of which the secret is received by the angels with smiles of gladness." |
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