The Wings of Icarus - Being the Life of one Emilia Fletcher by Laurence Alma-Tadema
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Constance. Nor could I have wished it to be otherwise.
Now let me think when I was first taken with this mad fit. It was last Thursday week; we were all three in the wood; it was one of my bad days, when I love him unto pain; it hurt me that he lagged behind, I wanted him near. And I twice saw Constance turn to look after him; I turned, too,--they smiled at each other. When he drew up, the path was wider; it was the first time, I think, that instead of coming to my side, or placing himself between us, he went round to Constance. I noticed it, I felt it; there spread a quick pain through my whole being. It was silly, perhaps, but I walked round behind him, and slipped my hand through his arm. "Are you tired, my Emilia?" he asked; but I answered: "No, dear; I only wanted to take your arm." And I said to myself, "I am very glad that he is mine, and not another woman's." I never remember having understood hatred as I did at that moment; the possibility of his growing to love Constance had not yet occurred to me, only the thought that he might some day love another woman better than me. And it dawned upon me thus suddenly that I was jealous. And now, what does the judge think? No evidence, of course not; they are both as true as gold, they both love me dearly, they would not |
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