in my way of thinking, that step was more cruel than all the others-
-by a partial representation of facts, and pieces of facts, put
together as it best suited their purpose, and published to the whole
world, they did all that in them lay to expose me for a fool, and to
brand me for a knave. But then I had deserved this abundantly at
their hands, according to the notions of party-justice. The Tories
have not indeed impeached nor attainted me; but they have done, and
are still doing something very like to that which I took worse of
the Whigs than the impeachment and attainder: and this, after I
have shown an inviolable attachment to the service, and almost an
implicit obedience to the will of the party; when I am actually an
outlaw, deprived of my honours, stripped of my fortune, and cut off
from my family and my country, for their sakes.

Some of the persons who have seen me here, and with whom I have had
the pleasure to talk of you, may, perhaps, have told you that, far
from being oppressed by that storm of misfortunes in which I have
been tossed of late, I bear up against it with firmness enough, and
even with alacrity. It is true, I do so; but it is true likewise
that the last burst of the cloud has gone near to overwhelm me.
From our enemies we expect evil treatment of every sort, we are
prepared for it, we are animated by it, and we sometimes triumph in
it; but when our friends abandon us, when they wound us, and when
they take, to do this, an occasion where we stand the most in need
of their support, and have the best title to it, the firmest mind
finds it hard to resist.

Nothing kept up my spirits when I was first reduced to the very
circumstances I now describe so much as the consideration of the
delusions under which I knew that the Tories lay, and the hopes I